Mindful pause

While meditation is great at relieving stress, and mindfulness is good to inculcate into your lifestyle, they are not able to help plug the anxiety during an anxiety attack. So I came across this article which provides a few short steps to calm yourself down during an anxiety attack. Similar to mindfulness techniques, just simplified into 30seconds-1minute to just calm you down during an anxiety/panic attack. I have not tried it myself yet, and I suppose that’s a good thing because my anxiety attacks have stopped for now!

The Mindful Pause

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the anxiety is hitting me like a train

The worst part of hypochondria is hitting me right now. Had a bit of gastric this afternoon and couldn’t really breathe properly. I was watching a movie at the time. It was nothing I had not felt before and, as I predicted, it went away once I finally began to burp the gas out of my stomach.

However, on the train ride home, I began to suddenly have those worst worst hypochondriac thoughts where you think something is wrong with you – what if you have a disease, what if you have an illness, what if you lose your sight.

It was all I could do to not cry on the train. Once I alighted and came up to ground, I walked into the sign of a field and trees, to the sound of a crying child and singing birds. Idyllic, and it made me feel better, yet it also made me want to cry at the same time.

Held myself together while I bought dinner, walked home so I could soak in nature a bit, but began crying on the way back nonetheless. Now I’m just in my room, being a mess and crying for absolutely no reason.

I just want to be normal. Normal people don’t cry for no reason. Normal people don’t get anxiety attacks. I tried my mindfulness thoughts – I really did. But right now I just want someone to talk to. I have a ton of people I could contact right now but what do I say? “Hi I’m crying for no reason.”

This is terribly written post. But now that I’ve vomited all of that out…I feel a teeny bit better.

I WILL BE STRONG. I WILL FIGHT.

Airshow 2016

I went to see aerial displays at the national airshow today. Turning my eyes to the white, bright, cloudy sky was difficult. Not only did my eyes begin to hurt after a few minutes, but my floaters came on in full force and I began to see lots of bright stars too (the usually blue-field entoptic ones, except made worse because it was so damn bright).

I felt myself beginning to panic. All “mindfulness” tactics went out the window, but I did try to focus on the planes instead of the floaters/stars. It kind of failed when I deliberately tried to do it, but funnily enough, when it got to the really beautiful Korean “Black Eagles” display, I pretty much forgot about both without even trying! I was just staring at the formations eagerly and cheering.

Goes to show your brain really can block these out if it is distracted. After that, I forgot about them again as I went around to see the planes/helicopters. Makes me feel a lot better, in hindsight. :)

Mindfulness – a strategy

Sharing this article on Business Insider (link at end of the post) about a strategy to help you stop worrying. Hypochondria is, at the end of the day, “in our heads”. I know I said the symptoms are real, but what we want to target is the worry that comes along with it. The anxiety that mushrooms the symptoms into large monsters. The fear that may even cause you to fall sick because your mind goes into over-drive.

Next time you’re worrying, remember that your thoughts aren’t real. Life is real.

So turn your attention to your senses. To the world around you. (No, not to your smartphone.)

How does that cup of coffee smell? Did you even notice the people nearby?

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